Auditing Time And Reducing Anxiety

It’s been hard to get a post out on time this Friday, and I think anxiety and pressure are the problem. I’m putting too much pressure on myself about the time that I don’t believe I have, and it’s giving me anxiety, which is putting a halt to my productivity.

As my blogging schedule stands right now, I have a backlog of Monday and Wednesday content to get me through the end of the year. For my novel, I want to get 500 words out per day, and then my housekeeping posts on Fridays. On top of that, I work full time on third shift; I have a four year old at home with no child care, and a home to take care of. Plus, my relationship with my husband and daughter. It’s a good thing I thrive when I’m busy.

To maintain a good balance of all these things, I am constantly doing time management audits and this week just happened to be one of those weeks where I couldn’t quite make my time work for me, which is bound to happen and it’s absolutely not the end of the world, but in the midst of it, can be disheartening. It’s weeks like these that I need to remember to breathe. To take it day by day, moment by moment, in order to not allow anxiety to get the best of me.

I need to take a breath, step back, and remember that everything in life follows a cycle. It’s weeks like these, weeks that look out of control, that we need to remember to lean away from fear and lean into desire. Desire to write, desire to be a good mom, desire to be a good wife. Desire to protect my peace and to trust that I can and will get done what I need to get done. Everything will work out in the end so long as we lean away from forcing our will and lean into the want and need of what we’re doing.

Writing i my air, my escape, my flow, and my expression. What we need will come to us when we need it.

I am intentionally keeping this post short so that I’m not tempted to over explain for the sake of length. To honor writing for writing’s sake by putting down what is on my heart as authentically as possible.

So this weekend, I would like to challenge you, reader, to do an audit of your time. What are you trying to force where you could take the pressure off and allow the flow of what needs to be?

Have a great weekend. I’ll see you back here Monday for some poetry.